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| AHHHHHHH. Studying for one final is so much harder than studying for 3
for some reason. It's not that I'm not happy that I only have one to
worry about, it's just that I feel extremely lazy and I'm not motivated
to study for my MOTIVATION psychology class. How ironic.
This is my venting entry, so if you don't want to read about bitching
then don't continue. I will list 10 things I hate about people in
celebration of the joy of the holidays.
1. I hate people who say they will call back but don't.
2. I hate people who don't know my name and insist on calling me "Hey you!" or pointing at me.
3. I hate people who don't appreciate what thier parents do for them.
For example: "OMG! My parents won't buy me _______. (fill in the
blank). Umm...your parents put a roof over your head and have provided
for you. I hate when people complain about this especially if they are
over 18. They could dump you in the street if they wanted to, so don't
bitch about the small stuff. Get a job and buy it yourself bitch.
4. I hate people who lie to get out of a lie. This is the worst. If you
get away with it you are the biggest asshole on Earth, and if you get
caught and still lie about it...you should just die.
5. I hate people who are racist.
6. I hate people who have something against interracial marriage and mention it in front of me.
7. I hate guys who think all the girls check them out. They aren't. You
have a bad attitude and girls hate your guts. Get over it.
8. I hate guys that sleep around and are proud of it.
9. I hate it when guys want you to themselves but don't want YOU exclusively.
10. I hate it when people don't see what is right in front of them.
Take me for who I am. Love me or leave me. With loving like yours I'm better off alone.
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| My enemy for the moment :
I have to come up with an argument for an assisgned court case and
present it in front of my professor. Seems easy right? NO! My professor
is a judge and we have to go to the courthouse and stand at the box and
take turns citing our reasonings for the outcome of the case. I
think I might faint or throw up. Or maybe both. I also have a cyberlaw
paper due on thursday AND I'm helping the manager train new servers
this tues/thurs at the Olive Garden. I know that it could be worse but
I'm so stressed out right now with school and work I want to be the
best at everything I do but I guess that comes at a cost. I know I'm
overwhelming myself but at the same time I know that this hard work
will show people that I am serious and that I want to be successful and
respected. Hopefully it will pay off later :)
On another note I have to add that sometimes I seriously wonder whether
or not some people are fucking crazy or just really stupid. It's so sad
that people do things they sholdn't have done and then when they are
confronted with it, they try to deny it. Here is some advice to the
biggest loser on the planet: People are not stupid. The longer you hide
something the bigger pile of shit you will be stuck in. Be a man...suck
it up. Don't talk to me about it because I no longer have a hint of
respect for you. Neither do any of my friends so don't bother talking
to them. The nerve of some people...
On a happier note I am feeling happy nowadays with a certain
someone. I think it just wasn't the right time for us before...but we
have both grown more aware of each others needs and I think that it
might actually turn out okay. I guess we have to wait and see what
happens with that. 
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| My digital camera got stolen. What a bitch. Oh well...I guess my friends and I were lucky that the psycho fucker was there in the house while we were out. I would have shoved the 5 inch heel of my shoe up his/her ass until they passed out from the pain. Anyways...just waiting in agony to get my grade back for my constitutional law midterm. My professor let us know that the mean was a 58 out of a 100 and that we wouldn't get our test back till next week. Great way to jumpstart our weekends. I have been waiting in fear for the results...with sweaty palms and feet. I haven't been this nervous since my driving test 3 years ago. It's funny that this makes me more terrified than the time where I drove in newport semi-drunk and started to drive the wrong way on a one way street.
I was watching Grey's Anatomy today and I got kind of sad all of a sudden. In the epiosode a man was stuck in a coma for sixteen years and finally woke up. He asks where his wife and son were. During the sixteen years that he was out his wife remarried and is now pregnant. It was so sad to see his reaction to the news...you could see how much he loves his family. It makes me sad to think that I have a dad that I hardly know that lives only an hour away. Since the time that he had his heart surgery about a year ago I've been afraid to see him. I'm afraid that once I get close to him that he will be gone. He's in his late sixties and has had so many surgeries. I guess I feel like if I let go now...later on I won't have to deal with the grief as much. I know that sounds so horrible but I just can't stand the thought losing another person that is close to me.
Today while I was at my ex boyfriend's house I was running up the stairs, and all of a sudden it seemed like time stopped. It was just this instant rush of thoughts that made me slow down. Some people get over hurtful feelings and memories by just putting in the past, but for me, I seem to just replace something that I lost with something new. Once I lose the thing that I replaced something else with, I tend to look back and regret that I didn't just bury the past. Life is full of laughter, love, happiness, regret, anger, jealousy and the list goes on. When do we look past these emotions and look at situations as they are with no sugar coating? Why is it that the one thing I'm so scared of is the only thing I want right now? blah blah blah. I'm boring myself. | | |
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So happy...and I got one
of the 15 highest scores for the total course grade. I'm usually don't
like to boast but shit...I deserve it for this one. Now that my
presentation is over..all I need to do now is study for my final on
Wednesday & then I'm free for winter break. Pretty soon gonna start
planning for a Vegas trip with the girls :) Can't wait. 
